Hello lovely people! I know I've been away for a while. When one is in college/university everything can seem so stressful. To be honest I seriously do not even know what I am doing here. Is anyone else out there struggling with me? I feel like my life is moving a little too fast and I don't even know where its going or where to go next. Lately it seems as if everyone around me knows where their life is going and knows what to do with their lives and I'm just here going through everything day by day. I think this is a huge thing to deal with the feeling of growing up. In my head I feel as if I will always be a kid at heart and yet I know now that I have to grow up and become an adult.
Lately though I've been struggling with keeping up with classes and wondering why I'm here and the whole why am I in college. I love the environment but I hate going to classes. I hate my current living situation because I currently am in between homes because I decided to move out of my condo because I wouldn't be able to concentrate for finals.
When in university and you decide to find roommates because it would be cheaper to share an apartment than live in the dorms, make sure you talk to your future roommates and make sure you all mutually understand each other and what not, because if you're like me who was just looking for a place last minute and then rush into a commitment its hard living and adjusting yourself. This past year I was not focused I always worried about coming home and to be honest sometimes I felt like my roommates were mad at me or what not which caused me to become scared to go home. I think when dealing with issues I hate confrontation, I will only confront people really close to me, not people I just started to know. I am shy in that way but when you know me I am not shy at all.
I think when dealing with situations in college a lot of thinking should be thought out. I know thats boring and it seems stupid and what not. I know spontaneous decisions are more fun like getting a tattoo when you're drunk or full on pissed drunk. Or going on a random adventure. I love that. I do that during the summer, because summers don't last forever and then fall comes back around for me to go and try and focus.
To be honest I may have adhd, I do struggle with focusing on any topic at school, its really bad. To be honest I currently am typing up this blog post while I'm in my psychology class lol (Now its the next day while I'm watching Full House). I think that while I'm on this ever so long journey on finding myself I'll try and post at least once a day.
Here's my inspiration of the day:
Until then...spread love and keep your head up.
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